CHAPTER FIVE
The Girl Who Asked and the Boy Who Could Sing
This chapter details how a young Sean used to overcome literacy challenges during a summer production. By engaging in constant auditory repetition and memorizing songs from The Sound of Music, he transitioned from masking his inability to read to successfully decoding the written script. The narrative highlights how the rhythmic nature of rehearsals served as a bridge, allowing him to internalize language through hearing rather than traditional sight-reading. This immersive experience fostered a sense of personal pride and transformed a stressful task into an enjoyable, soul-saving activity. Ultimately, the texts illustrate the power of performance arts in helping students adapt to and conquer learning obstacles through unconventional methods.
The Sound of Learning to Read SLIDE DECK
The
summer between fourth and fifth grade, I had just been diagnosed with dyslexia.
I did not yet know what to do with that information, except to carry it quietly
and hope nobody asked. The YMCA day camp in downtown Tucson was what summer
looked like for my brother and me — two working parents, a choice board every
morning, and the daily competition of getting there early enough to claim the
activity you actually wanted.
The
Choice Board
The system was simple. Arrive early, get your choice. Arrive late, get
what was left. My brother and I were not always early. There were mornings when
the good choices — sports, swimming, anything involving motion and the outdoors
— were gone by the time we got there, and we found ourselves in ballet.
Learning dummy player. This was not what I had in mind for summer.
But one morning, something different appeared on the board. A summer
production of The Sound of Music. A full staging — or close enough to one —
organized by a camp counselor who was, I would later understand, a theater
major using the summer to get her first experience running a production. She
was young. She was pretty. She had the particular energy of someone who has
found the thing they are meant to do and cannot stop talking about it.
She came over to me while I was looking at the choices. Not to the group
— to me specifically. Blonde hair, hazel eyes, the approximate age and build of
a von Trapp child. She had been watching the kids come in that morning and
casting her show by eye.
She asked if I wanted to play Kurt.
My first reaction, underneath the surface reaction of being singled out
by a pretty girl, was fear. The clean, specific fear of a child who cannot read
being asked to learn a script. I knew what a play required. Lines memorized
from a page. Blocking written in stage directions. Cues that had to be tracked
in text. The entire apparatus of theater runs on the written word, and I had
just spent fourth grade being measured against the written word and found
significantly lacking.
I said something noncommittal. She was persistent.
She knew about the dyslexia — I don't know how it came up, or whether my
parents had mentioned it to the camp, but she knew. And she said, with a
matter-of-factness that I still think about, that she would help. That it would
be fine. That she had more belief in me than I currently had in myself, and she
was going to need me to borrow some of hers until mine caught up.
She did not say it in those words. But that was what she meant. And
something in a nine-year-old boy who had spent the better part of a year being
told, in the bureaucratic language of IEPs and resource classrooms, what he
could not do — something in that boy said yes.
First
Rehearsal
The YMCA had a full theater stage. It still does — the building has a
long history as a small community theater, and the stage is real, with wings
and lighting and an audience seating area that could hold a genuine crowd.
Walking onto it for the first time had a particular quality I did not have
words for then. The floor felt different. The air felt different. There was a
sense of being in a space that was designed for something to happen.
The first rehearsals were almost entirely music. She played the songs,
sang them herself, had us sing them back. This was not a relief exactly — it
was still material to learn, still words I had to know — but it was a different
kind of learning. The words arrived in melody. They arrived with rhythm and
rhyme and the particular stickiness of a tune that attaches itself to your
brain whether you want it to or not.
The first song I remember knowing was My Favorite Things. Brown paper
packages tied up with string. Raindrops on roses. The words came in pairs that
rhymed and scanned, that had a logic to them that was musical rather than
phonetic, and that logic was one I could follow. Then came So Long Farewell —
the children's goodbye song, playful and a little melancholy, the one with the
blocking that required us to peel off one by one up the staircase. That one
took more rehearsal. The staging and the singing had to happen simultaneously,
and coordinating my feet and my mouth while tracking where I was supposed to be
on stage was its own cognitive challenge.
Do-Re-Mi was the hardest. Doe, a deer, a female deer. Ray, a drop of
golden sun. The song is built on a phonemic conceit — each syllable of the
scale attached to a word — and for a child with phonological processing
difficulties, that particular structure, which is easy and delightful for most
children, required more work. I got there eventually. But that one took longer
than it should have, and I noticed.
Edelweiss I loved from the first time I
heard it. I have sung it with my class every morning for twenty-four years.
Some songs just settle into you and stay.
The script arrived in pieces. Stage directions, dialogue, the
architecture of who stood where and said what and when. She never pressured me
to read it cold in front of the group. What she did instead was what good
theater directors do instinctively — she read through scenes aloud, she
demonstrated, she repeated. The text was always accompanied by sound and
action. You didn't just read that you crossed to stage left. You watched
someone cross to stage left, and then you crossed to stage left, and then you did
it again.
This was, I would understand much later, a deeply literate environment
that did not require literacy to enter.
The
Tracking
Somewhere in the first few weeks I developed a technique. I had used a
version of it before — the finger-tracking I had done with books at school,
trying to maintain the fiction of reading while actually memorizing. But in
rehearsal it became something different, something more precise.
I would hold the script and follow along with my finger while other cast
members ran their lines. Not because I was reading, exactly — but because I was
trying to synchronize the words I was hearing with the words on the page. To
catch the moment when the sound and the symbol aligned. It required a quality
of attention that was almost painful at first, the effort of holding two
channels open simultaneously — the auditory and the visual — and looking for
the match between them.
And then, gradually, it started to work.
Not perfectly. Not consistently. Not in the way that a fluent reader
tracks text, where the eye leads and the sound follows automatically. It was
slower than that, and more effortful, and there were passages where I lost the
thread and had to find it again. But there were also moments — specific,
physical, unmistakable moments — when the word I was hearing and the word my
finger was touching were the same word, and I knew it, and something in my
brain registered that connection.
I did not know what to call this. I did not know that what I was doing
had a name in reading science — that the connection between the phoneme and the
grapheme, between the sound and the symbol, is precisely the bridge that
dyslexia disrupts and that structured literacy instruction is designed to
rebuild. I knew only that it was working, slowly, and that the wanting was
strong enough to keep me doing it.
The wanting mattered. I have thought about this for decades as a teacher.
The Berenstain Bears, which I had memorized so completely that I could perform
reading it without decoding a single word — I had no particular desire to crack
the code of that text. There was nothing in it that I needed badly enough to
push through the difficulty. But the script, with its blocking and its songs
and its stage and its audience and its pretty director who believed I could do
it — that I wanted. And the wanting changed what the difficulty cost.
◆ THE SCIENCE: WHY REAL STAKES BEAT WORKSHEETS
What happened that
summer at the YMCA was not an accident, though it felt like one. It was, in the
language of cognitive science, the accidental construction of a high-stakes,
intrinsically motivating learning environment — and the research on what makes
those environments work is both robust and almost entirely ignored by the
systems designed to teach struggling readers.
Motivation and the Reading Brain
Self-determination
theory, developed by psychologists Edward Deci and Richard Ryan, identifies
three conditions that drive intrinsic motivation: autonomy (some degree of
choice), competence (the experience of genuine progress), and relatedness (a
sense of connection to the people and purpose involved). The YMCA production
had all three. I had chosen to participate. The songs were giving me visible,
audible evidence of progress every week. And I was connected — to the director,
to the other children, to an audience that would actually see us perform.
Worksheets have none of
these. A worksheet is autonomous only in the sense that a child sits alone with
it. It offers no experience of competence to a child who cannot yet decode —
only a record of errors. And it is relational to no one. It exists in a vacuum
of accountability where the only witness to the failure is the child and the
red pen.
The Role of Emotion in Memory
Neuroscience has
established clearly that emotional arousal — positive or negative — enhances
memory consolidation. The amygdala, the brain's emotion-processing center, tags
experiences as worth retaining based on their emotional significance. An
experience that produces genuine feeling — pride, anticipation, the specific
pleasure of a harmony landing right — is more likely to be retained than an
experience that produces nothing at all.
This is why I can still
sing every word of every song from that production fifty years later, and
cannot tell you what was on the worksheets I completed in fourth grade. The
songs were emotionally significant. The worksheets were not. The brain kept one
and discarded the other, exactly as it was designed to do.
Finger Tracking and Orthographic
Mapping
The technique I
developed by instinct — tracking words with my finger while hearing them spoken
— is a close cousin of what reading scientists call orthographic mapping: the
process by which the brain permanently bonds the visual form of a word to its
spoken sound. This bonding is what makes fluent reading possible. It is
disrupted in dyslexia, but it is not destroyed. It can be rebuilt through
repeated, multi-sensory exposure — seeing the word, hearing the word, and
connecting the two simultaneously, exactly as I was doing in rehearsal.
I was not receiving an
intervention. I was receiving a role in a musical. But the cognitive work was
the same.
The
Performance
We performed once, at the end of summer, for the other children and staff
at the YMCA. Not for a paying audience, not on a night when parents could get
off work to come. For the camp itself, the community we had spent the summer
inside.
It was enough.
I stood on that stage and I knew my songs. I knew my blocking. I knew
where to stand and when to move and what came next. The script was not in a
tight grip — I did not need it in a tight grip anymore. I had heard the words
enough times, tracked them enough times, sung them enough times, that they had
become part of me in the way that deeply learned things become part of you: not
stored, exactly, but inhabited.
I felt proud. Not the complicated, defensive pride of the child who has
talked his way out of a failing grade. Straightforward, uncomplicated pride. I
had done a thing that had seemed impossible in June, and it was August, and I
had done it.
My brother had not been cast. He had spent the summer doing other things
while I rehearsed, and I think that was the first time in my childhood that I
had something he didn't — not a possession, but an experience. A capability. A
self that had been built over those weeks of rehearsal that was slightly
different from the self I had brought in.
I did not know, standing on that stage, that what had happened to me had
a mechanism. That the months of hearing words while tracking them with my
finger, of embedding language in melody and rhythm and physical movement, of
wanting badly enough to push through the difficulty — that these were not
magic, but science. That I had accidentally stumbled into the conditions that
the research would later confirm were exactly what a child with dyslexia
needed: high motivation, multi-sensory input, repetition without shame, and
real stakes.
The stakes had been real. There was an audience. There was a director who
believed in me. There was a stage, and a costume, and a song I had to know.
No worksheet has ever offered me any of that.
Salzburg,
Forty Years Later
When I was living in Sweden, I took a trip to Vienna and then to
Salzburg. I had signed up, somewhat on impulse, for the Sound of Music tour —
the bus that takes you to the filming locations, the gazebo, the lake, the
mountains. I boarded the bus and discovered I was the only man on it. This was
mildly awkward.
Then the singing started.
The tour guide played the songs and the passengers sang along, and I knew
every word of every song — knew them in the way you know something that was put
into you before you were fully formed, before you had a critical faculty to
evaluate whether this was the kind of thing a grown man should know by heart. I
knew them the way I know my own name.
Someone asked how I knew them so well. I said I had played Kurt von Trapp
as a child, in a production at the YMCA in Tucson, Arizona.
There was a pause. Then several people wanted to know everything about
it.
I told them about the director whose name I cannot remember, the pretty
theater major who saw a blonde-haired boy at a choice board and decided he was
a von Trapp. I told them about My Favorite Things and Do-Re-Mi and the way
Edelweiss settled into me and never left. I told them, though not in these
words, that the summer she cast me was the summer I stopped being only a child
who could not read and started being a child who could do something
extraordinary with language — who could hold it in his body, perform it, give
it back to an audience.
I did not tell them it had saved me. But it had.
I did not choose an intervention. An intervention chose me,
wearing lederhosen.
Theater rehearsals helped bridge the gap with literacy primarily through repetition, auditory learning, and memorization.
The process of "constant listening, hearing, [and] saying" during rehearsals allowed the narrator to internalize the script. This was particularly effective because:
- Repetition and Song: Repeatedly performing songs like "Do-Re-Mi" and "So Long, Farewell" turned the learning process into something fun and engaging. By the end of the summer, the narrator had learned not only their own lines and songs but also those they weren't even a part of simply because they had heard them so often.
- Aural to Visual Connection: Having heard the lines so many times, the narrator reached a point where they could "figure out a lot of stuff that was on the page". The familiarity with the spoken word allowed them to begin decoding the written text, or at least "fake" reading because they already knew the content by heart.
- Masking and Adaptation: The narrator used their developed listening skills—a strategy they also employed in school to mask the fact that they couldn't read—to memorize the script in the same way they had memorized books like the Berenstain Bears.
Ultimately, this immersion in the script meant that by the final production, the narrator no longer needed to keep the script in a "tight little grip" and felt a sense of pride in knowing their parts.


